原来太迟了

原来

是自己做错了

时间，可以让人成熟

时间，让我试考问题所在

原来。。珍惜

重要

emo

早熟的年轻人其实背后带着伤心童年回忆

过的独立，对自己有一定的信心

因为要保护自己那么的脆弱

. . . . . . .

对外人来说:"你好成熟哦"。

其实是在假装，不想给人看穿

如果自己都不保护自己，

那么这世界不知还有谁可以保护自己了

. . . . . . . .

有家不能依靠

有友不能信任

请问谁可以借我双手？

. . . . . . .

Supporting my self ≧◡≦

Quite some time, this blog being hang....

... because as an accountant is Busyzzz~

Due to such stressful course I force to give up and support 1 important thing.

I have to support my brain.... (keep keep going)

i just crap here because this is the only place I comfortable with..

sorry who feel board about this crapping.

ok~ to main topic, today going to talk about what had happen this few month.

I had a hard year.

I need money, to cure... (´ε｀ )

where can I get the money? ..... utar DSA

today I went to DSA to understand more about the Insurance..

unfortunately the only officer in charge was absent.

________________________________

The only thing i worried is my mom & dad financial support.

Work for whole life to support family T.T,

2 yrs ago support my brother.

currently is my turn. really felt sorry for bothersome.

This is very painful.. hold that thing for hours plus....(´ε｀ )

haha $720++

家里的墙

一个家建立的好需要墙来保护这。

小时候兄弟们都会在墙壁上比赛画高度衡量自己长高了多少。

然后大笑隔壁比他矮的那位。哈哈

在长大了一点，又多了一道墙来分开他们。

大家见见的不会坐在一起。

自己会在另一道墙的后面躲着，做自己的事。

家庭的关系不会很那么密切了。

心事都在墙壁上而不是跟家人分享了。



再看另个家庭的墙。

虽然家小，墙壁自然而然少了。

兄弟必不得已挤在一间房。

墙只有四面，可是可以天天见面。

天天大吵大闹，有说有笑。

所以说一个家墙多好是少比较好？

周六计划失败

现在心情非常非常的差，很火爆有想吃人的念头。
感觉肚子烧烧痛死了，不想走不想动根不想出门。

想找个可怜虫咬！

坐又不是站又不不能。

气的想起火烧屋！

今天本来有个计划，全家人去婆婆家照顾她一晚除了哥哥。
叔叔们的安排是每家轮流照顾，大家都有工作要忙有事情赶所以有轮流的安排。

看看下，我真在打着字代表没去。
因为了我的肚子，真是有够痛的，很想哭。
以前都会用药来控制，现在不敢了怕有副作用。

可以猜想婆婆带这墨眼镜到处走就连看电视都要带的情况下有多特别。不说的话别人会以为我家的婆婆真现今 "Very IN" 跟得上潮流。这是因为动眼手术后要避免光，也不可以往下看不然会失明。所以看着我们或吃饭的时候都往上看，她时时刻刻往上看有骄傲的感觉。~（好笑）

Is the world is really round in shape?



Yes, In scientifically the world is round.



but......

to be continue ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Lost to the path

Somehow some where since when being in worse situation, form a bad to the worse from worse to a trouble.

Battle between internal & external mixed up both feeling, turn into a rubbish may not recycle.

Something is coming up something not going down turning to a crazy dust.

When ever to a path shine with stars there will be tons of thorn needed to pass.

Losing control soon, no turning back.
There is not empty area to relax.

失眠

真现在是凌晨三点半，刚关上电脑打算好好的睡，滚在床上一个小时闷死了就爬起来玩，很久没睡一场好觉了。这年以来天天都在失眠的状态，到学校都没什么精神上课成绩也一落千丈。这次的失眠是因为烦恼而睡不好烦这个又担心那个。

上两个月最倒霉了简直是害怕睡觉，因为运气不好被“东东”干扰。从婴儿到现在我没发过恶梦，要不就没发梦要不就是发美梦。那次还真吓死人，我家族人口那么多偏偏选我作代表，因为我是他们的后代孙子刚好又是运气不好的那个？想起来真恐怖，那次醒来就哭还在床上动都不敢动到天亮，而且还连续两个星期发那种恶梦。

不认罪

有没有搞错，睡觉都有罪 ？？？
虽然真常来说每个人睡觉是主八小时就够了。
可是对我来说不同人有不同的主够睡眠。
我呢？ 14 个小时才主够睡眠的 ... ... you know ？？？
上课 5 天都累怀了终于有两天睡觉，给我当然珍惜这两天拉

还有

要我帮忙请你提早告诉我
不要突然说有 Project 接
迟告诉我 = 我是不会接的 ... ... 很确定的不会接

睡觉大过天 ... ... 听过吗？
大忙人的时间表很满的 ... ... you need to book the time

12am 告诉我有 Project 接，要我明天早上 10:30am 到。
前几个小时你 msg 我，都睡了。
迟告诉我，不能怪我。
我也想不到理由向你道歉。
之前的负责人，要我接 Project 都会提早 4 天打电话 book 时间。
不同人有不同工作方式，而我也是。
现在我的工作是睡觉，不打算合作了。

Bad month in Feb

Unstable emotion is the best time to write blog to express your feeling, to tell what usually cont tell in public, just like trowing a rock to the person you don't wish to to see.

When problem come to you
wish to speak to someone, who can you find or just keep deep into your heart till end of the day.
forget everything though nothing happen?

If problem all come in one times, what will you do?
Shut your self alone the whole day long till problem solve by it self ?
but when problem wont be solve if you don't move the 1st step?
same question what will you do?

If a problem that don't have a solution, but just wait time past?
There have nothing to do but to shut your self.

Wish to speak to someone hope that can feel better but in the opposite is not the thing you wish to hear.
Nothing you can do but to shut your self again

All the problem is depend how you face and how you think the problem is a problem
but if you are a emotion person better shut your self than express out to the others.
I will choose to shut my self.

What is this?

This is
not me !
Not my dog !
Not my lost dog !
but just look like me ! !

Just don't understand why !
every night could not sleep, but morning can.
everyday don't feel hungry, but others can.
Am I a weirdo?
or
I am one of UFO relatives ? If yes, few days later open house will be inviting all UFO's and friends.
or
I just feeling ........

STRESS ! !

Maybe ?
Maybe not.
But I don't want to admit I feeling stress at all.
Exam coming ... Chinese New Year around the corner ...
Everyday stomach feeling sad.
Headache & hand ache (don't know why)
Feel tired but cannot fall sleep, really weird every night row over the bed until morning.

I had skip more than 10 times of breakfast, lunch and dinner.
After exam I maybe blew off by the wind.

Conclusion : I still want to say that ...

I am not stress ! ! !

冷冷的天气，闷闷的心情

今天很夜很夜的，才从美丽动人的床爬起来
爬起来的当中拿我差不多两到三个多小时
没人可以像我在床上，什么都不做就在赖床
有些人会认为这人在干嘛？
床，晚上再接下去睡都可以。
浪费宝贵的时光而已。
说中了，我是在浪费时间因为今天没人在家，没食物，没了我最想念的狗狗。赖床当中想了很多东西，发生了想办法躲开的，未发生将会出现在我人生中的，不希望发生我都想了，希望发生的也不例外。

真讨厌就在幻想当中来了电话，谈电话又说不上，吵架还差不多。同样的话不必说第二次可是我说不只两次，说都有一年多了，都过一年多了说长很长， 说短根本都不短。非常的对不起如果我说你是个爱理不理的人可是我就是很讨厌很讨厌这种态度。
开心就说笑，伤心就当你出气桶。
人不是完美这我可以理解，缺点多多我也有，完美的人是不存在。人是很想追求完美，可是不会抱太大希望得到 ...因为知道那是不可能的事。你也是时候开新的一辆车，放下旧的。祝福你



看了发现我的华语有问题或错字多多，对不起
我不是华校生... ...多多包涵
可是很想练习写不然会忘光
有生以来写了那么多华语字
要奖励一下自己，哈哈

Sad line

Friendship
Is only everlasting feature in this world.

There may be biggest miracle which can change the entire world but even in that miracle also friendship will come out from its sleep.

Friends may not save but they never let you go to deep.

Friends find innovative ways to stop you from falling and try to get some more help to lift you.

Friends will save us from any situations, help you to escape from big troubles.

Friends will cheer us when we’re sorrowful or depressed.

When you act silly with friends around they also comes and join you and get the enjoyment that you are getting.


friendship, friendship, friendship
all nonsense

my dear friends,

no pain, no gain
dun dare , dun game
want game, no complain

since u cannot play just keep quite and see ppl enjoy
don't spreading rumors around
if feeling hurt just tell out
don't beoz u using me so don't wan to break the friendship until u finish using me only break.

I m the kind of person prefer talk when have problem not to keep
but u killing me with words every second

"The tongue like a sharp knife, Kills without drawing blood"

U can just tell out what u not satisfied
I not the kind of person after hearing worn help or change
I prefer to cure the relationship, than forget the friendship.
sob sob